Thursday, September 15, 2016

Interview With Me

I shared at my other website that the Alumni Director at my seminary, the Iliff School of Theology, interviewed me a few weeks ago.  I loved sitting down with her at our kitchen table with herbal tea and just talking.  She asked me great questions, and I love that the interview she crafted used lots of quotes so you hear me as me.  You can read it here.  I talk about my work some, and also Dr. Vincent Harding, and my grandfather, and our family's 5 years in Kansas, among other things. Enjoy!

Wednesday, September 14, 2016

Road Trip Beautiful

I missed two Marschallin Mondays but that's cool, because I was working on a story (you can read it here), because yes, I am still obsessed with Carol.  Don't you wonder what happened on the road trip, the things we don't get to see?  Well I did, anyway.  Enjoy.

I think we all need beauty.  This was a hard, heartbreaking summer if you care at all about the state of the world, and especially if you work at trying to make it better like I do.  Writing like this was a respite, not an escape but rest and the opportunity to create, and be immersed in something beautiful at times when the world is so not beautiful.  Sometimes that's opera (and my Marschallin) and other music, herbs, farmhanding, movies, sometimes, turns out, it's writing.

I haven't written stories since I was a teenager.  Poetry, journaling of course but not stories.  It's an interesting thing to come back around to (full circle, if you will), and I find I enjoy it.  Sometimes my imagination for the world gets exhausted, and this helps. 

A little more beauty for you, that I discovered.

Hélène Grimaud is spectacular and mesmerizing in her performance of the Rachmaninov 2nd Piano Concerto.  I was supposed to writing but I kept watching her.  Really stunning.

And, a beautiful fanvid for Carol, set to "The First Time Ever I Saw Your Face."

Monday, August 29, 2016

Marschallin Monday: Vacation Edition

Don't mind us, we'll be ignoring the larks and keeping the curtains closed, thank you very much.

Didonato and Schwanewilms.

Friday, August 19, 2016

Marschallin, um, Friday: Favorite Dress Edition

The Marschallin could wear this, no?  We'll just keep to ourselves what we imagine is causing this rather, um, delighted expression.

Tuesday, August 9, 2016

Non-Conforming, Mismatched, Maladjusted

I preached this Sunday (first time in a long time) and posted my sermon on my other site.  You can read it here.  It was good to be in the pulpit again!

Friday, August 5, 2016


What I love about this is her total joy about what she's able to do.  Very cool.

Thursday, August 4, 2016

Monday Marschallin on...Thursday?

The Marschallin is giving the eye to yours truly being too busy to remember to remember her on Monday. I will grovel accordingly, and pray for a gentler schedule in coming weeks.

Seriously?  You forgot about me?  How is that possible?

Monday, July 25, 2016

Marschallin Monday: Preview Edition

 Skip to about 2:15.  This was the "trailer" they showed in April at the "Elektra" HD that made me sit up and say "OH MY GOD" out loud.

Tuesday, July 19, 2016

Marschallin Monday: Except Its Tuesday Edition

Please, just feed me all the chocolate.  Sigh.

We do love our Marschallins in red, don't we!

Catherine Carby and Cheryl Barker.  I don't know them but it doesn't really matter?  I believe it's from this production.  Key quote:  "It's hard to imagine anyone abandoning such a Marschallin."

Well, that's what I keep saying! #IChooseTheMarschallin

Monday, July 11, 2016

Marschallin Monday: Is it Monday? Edition

Is it Monday?  Sigh.

Basically, I want beauty, but the white supremacist capitalist heteropatriarchy AKA Baron Ochs won't STFU and get out already.  So, I'm working on that. Hard.  I do wish more Marschallins were involved but -- true story -- a baritone in a regional production of Tosca playing Scarpia reached out to see how he could help the cause.  I kid you not.  Scarpia in the service of justice?  Yes please!


Monday, July 4, 2016

Marschallin Monday: Jazzy Love Song Edition

I don't know about you, but I totally imagine the Marschallin singing this to me in the middle of the night.  Don't you?  #IChooseTheMarschallin

Monday, June 27, 2016

Marschallin Monday: Swooning Edition

So yes, I've posted this photo before, and I do so again with good reason!

Guess who has tickets to this production, the day before her birthday, 2017?  That would be ME.  Saved up some birthday money (my parents are amazing and are now responsible for me seeing Renee Fleming live, singing Strauss, TWICE) and I'm SO EXCITED.  This will also be our first Met experience.  I'll just be here swooning from now until then.  So excited.  SO EXCITED.


Monday, June 20, 2016

Marschallin Monday: Farmyard Edition

It's not all about the fancy gowns, you know.  I love a Marschallin who's willing to get her hands dirty.

 The only thing that would make this better would be if it were goats instead of cows.  What better way to ease the heartache of stupid choices of young Octavians?

Thursday, June 16, 2016



Friends, I'm really proud to introduce to you my new website, FierceRev Remedies, where I'll be writing about herbalism, freedom movement work, and where those intersect for me.  This is an outgrowth of my vocational journey these last couple of years, including herbal studies, deepening pastoral justice work, farmwork, vocational discernment, and the project of healing and reclaiming my voice.

My first post is about my first herbal love.

I’ve been drinking herbal  infusion teas almost every day since then, and have felt the herbs’ slow, deep, transformational work in my being.  But Rose was the first, the first to teach me that the herbs so want to help us heal, help us be fierce for the work of liberation, help us love on this earth and its creatures and each other.  Rose was the first who made me feel I might be a healer, along with being a pastor and an activist.
Towanda's Window isn't going anywhere!  (Although I may shift it to WordPress because Blogger is getting annoying). I'll still post more personal reflections (and white shirt fangirling!) here.

Maybe I'll write more about this sometime, but I went through a time where somebody worked *really* hard to silence my voice.  That person almost succeeded.  You can see that reflected in this blog by how my personal writing goes from fairly prolific to veryvery quiet, almost non-existent, as this person influenced my life (you can see that same prolific/outspoken to silent pattern in my personal Facebook posts as well).  Maybe you noticed, if you've been reading here a long time. 

Long story short:  thank God I walked away from that!  I'm so thankful for my cielo, my friends, my church, my healers, all of whom have walked through this with me and loved on me hard.  The journey to healing has been deep, and long, at least long as it feels to me, which I guess what I want to really say is that you don't just recover from that, heal from that overnight.  I've gradually come to write more here -- that tri-partite Carol posting was a huge step! -- and now this new website feels enormous and important as I continue to heal.

I have stuff to say, y'all.  And there is stuff that wants to be said through me.  So, thanks for being here, and I hope you'll join me at my other hangout too.  Peace.

Sunday, June 12, 2016

Marschallin Monday: Ja Ja

I was trying to read a detailed synopsis with annotated thematic references (in this book) while flying to New Jersey today, which was amazingly fascinating (the reading, not the flying).  Until we hit nasty turbulence that made it impossible to do anything but try to breathe and not, well, you know.

So I breathed deeply, hummed overture/Act 1 opening scene themes in my head, because that's as far as I had gotten (which isn't really a bad place to pause...) and thought of this.

Travel messes with my perception of time (die Zeit, die ist ein Sonderbar ding...) and I think it's already Monday, even though it's late Sunday night, and so I'm posting this early.  At any rate I'm at a conference all week so what not have a little early Marschallin?