Sunday, July 1, 2007

Breakdown

(Originally posted May, 2007).

Again, my inarticulate inner turmoil. I love this song, today it rings in the hollow spaces as a plea and a response. Me and You, God.

Red Lights Are Flashing On The Highway
I Wonder If We're Gonna Ever Get Home
I Wonder If We're Gonna Ever Get Home Tonight
Everywhere The Waters Getting Rough
Your Best Intentions May Not Be Enough
I Wonder If We're Gonna Ever Get Home Tonight

But If You Break Down
I'll Drive Out And Find You
If You Forget My Love
I'll Try To Remind You
And Stay By You
When It Don't Come Easy

I Don't Know Nothing Except Change Will Come
Year After Year What We Do Is Undone
Time Keeps Moving From A Crawl To A Run
I Wonder If We're Gonna Ever Get Home

You're Out There Walking Down A Highway
And All Of The Signs Got Blown Away
Sometimes You Wonder
If You're Walking In The Wrong Direction

But If You Break Down
I'll Drive Out And Find You
If You Forget My Love
I'll Try To Remind You
And Stay By You
When It Don't Come Easy

So Many Things That I Had Before
That Don't Matter To Me Now
Tonight I Cry For The Love That I've Lost
And The Love I've Never Found
When The Last Bird Falls
And The Last Siren Sounds
Someone Will Say What's Been Said Before
Some Love We Were Looking For

But If You Break Down
I'll Drive Out And Find You
If You Forget My Love
I'll Try To Remind You
And Stay By You
When It Don't Come Easy

Patty Griffin
(you can hear the song here, although with Brokeback Mountain clips. Just close your eyes and listen.)

Will You stay by me? Will we ever get home? My best intentions may not be enough. So many layers to this song...so many layers to my broken heart at the end of a quarter of diving into the church's sinful antisemitic depths, with all of its echoes into racism and colonialism...spiritual and bodily violence. I don't know if Patty meant the song this way or not, but it's a prayer, my prayer...it's just love I'm looking for. But sometimes it's so hard to find.

1 comment:

  1. (original post comments)
    # don't eat alone Says:
    This song is one of my touchstones in dealing with my depression. What an amazing piece of grace to music.

    Peace
    Milton

    # ppb Says:
    We have similar taste in music.

    # Iris Says:
    I’m glad that you are searching for ways to process all of this. I need to find a song.

    # tngirl Says:
    I want to find the love with you!! Can I follow?

    # Towanda Says:
    Thanks, all. And tngirl, you can walk alongside.

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