If I had to name my disability, I would call it an unwillingness to fall … This reluctance signals the mistrust of the central truth of the Christian gospel: life springs from death, not only at the last but also in the many little deaths along the way. When everything you count on for protection has failed, the Divine Presence does not fail. The hands are still there — not promising to rescue, not promising to intervene — promising only to hold you no matter how far you fall.
- Barbara Brown Taylor
from her book Leaving Church: A Memoir of Faith
oh....but i want to fall....